scared of whats to come

so a few days ago my grandfather got a catscan and the doctor called like yesterday and said that he had to see him. my mom is going to the doctor with him today at 4. we were tallking about it yesterday in the car. she said that it isnt going to be good news. im so scared about what the doctor is going to say. i mean hes 90 of course he is going to have problems, but hes my grandfather and my rock. with all the stuff my family had to deal with the past few years i could always count on him. i love him sooo much and i dont know what i would do without him. who will mess my hair up at my wedding if hes not there? he cant go i need him here to tell me all the crazy stories he tells. and to sing his songs. he has a song for everything. i honastly cant imagain my life without my granpyy. and i dont want to have to live my life without him. i know its not going to be good. and i know that this was going to happen sooner or later. i just wish that it was later.